One of my pastors told us that whenever He watches movies, He has a notebook and takes notes. Apparently he felt like every movie had a lesson to teach. I don’t know why but I found that so hilarious. I laughed like a complete fool!! Yeah, I admit it- I was silly. But I remember one day, I decided to try it. I can’t remember the movie but my goodness, there was so much to learn. If I remember right,I watched that movie thrice just so that I don’t miss anything out.
Now that is something I do- yes, I watch movies with a notebook. I will be the first to admit that there are movies out there just for entertainment but there is always something we can learn in them. By the time, a screenwriter wrote it and a studio decided to make a movie out of it- there is something there that can enrich all of us if we take the time.
“Never stop trying. Never stop believing. Never give up. Your day will come.”Mandy Hale
I still believe is one such movie that has so much we can learn from. This review is from my perspective or should I say from what I learnt from the movie. It is based on the true story of Jeremy Camp, an award winning contemporary Christian singer-songwriter and his journey into music as well as love. Here is young Jeremy off to college where he meets the love of his life, Melissa who in some way or the other encourages him in his music. It was love at first sight!! Hahaha, you know I loved that but it was. They just had a connection.
True they had the ups and downs but they made it through until…… mmmmhhh for those who haven’t watched the movie, I suggest you go and watch it and then come back and continue reading because yes, this is a spoiler alert……well, you have been warned!! She gets cancer. He stays by her side, nurses her, prays for her, believes in her healing, marries her and she gets healed. But her healing comes in an unexpected manner.
This threw me off. Honestly!! I questioned my prayers. You know I have been praying for healing fervently so for her to die. I was so bamboozled! Yes, that’s a word!! I wondered if it was Gods will for me to be healed especially with the fact that the weekend, I watched this movie, I had had a sickle cell crisis and was in a lot of pain. I wondered if I was asking for that which was not meant to be. And if I should just relax and accept my life as it is. I remembered all the prayers I had been saying, the declarations and I was left bewildered. Not sure about my healing anymore until he read a letter which she had written before she had died.
It was a long letter but what touched me was, ”Whether it is healing/miracle or death, each is a chapter in a bigger story”. Can you imagine? She knew she was dying but she believed it was a chapter in a bigger story. That statement gave me hope. I won’t lie. I am still believing for healing- complete and total healing but it’s all part of a bigger story. She continues to say, ”Suffering doesn’t destroy faith. It refines it.”
Mmmhhhhh, whenever I would get a crisis, I would be so annoyed with God over the pain, the suffering and here is this lady looking at her suffering as refining tool. Eeehh, I was humbled. I was really humbled. “God is worth trusting, even when we can’t see.” This statement…mmmhhh..eeeeehhh…. I can’t see right now. I don’t know what my future holds but God is worth trusting. I need to believe in Him and his promises even when I can not see.
“I still believe in your faithfulness. I still believe in your truth. I still believe in your holy word. Even when I don’t see, I still believe. Though the questions still fog up my mind, with promises I still seem to bear Even when answers slowly unwind, it’s my heart I see you prepare.”I still believe~ Jeremy Camp
The above song was inspired by his wife’s faith in God and her journey till she went to be with the Lord. Melissa’s dying wish was that even if just one person was inspired to discover Jesus because of her story, then it was all worth it. All the pain, the suffering, the hurt, the loss would be worth it. She was an amazing woman!! Many people have been touched by her story including me.
I am not yet there where I can see that the pain and suffering of sickle cells is worth it but her story has opened my eyes to breadth and depth of Gods love for us. I am loved inspite of. I have a purpose inspite of. I have been chosen and called inspite of. I am still believing inspite of. That’s who I am. This is me!