It has been so hard writing this blog post. Kickstarting this blog series- I am not sure why but for some reason, I did everything else but write. Sit down to write, let’s make a cup of tea…..ok now time to write…let’s watch a movie for inspiration. Haha! Like I was literally running away, almost like running away from myself…
Then this morning, I got a comment on one of my previous blog posts, Take back your Pen from a gentleman named Eric. He was thanking me for the post and how it inspired him. I had to go back and read what it was about. It was like a slap…I had written that then why did it seem like I had completely forgotten everything I had experienced and was in a state of confusion about my next directions.. ……Imagine I was back in the beginning…..right at the start, just like an egg
It might be hard for an egg to turn into a bird: it would be a jolly sight harder for it to fly whilst remaining an egg.We are like eggs at present.And you can not go on indefinitely being an ordinary, decent egg. You must be hatched or go bad.C.S Lewis
So as we said earlier, a butterfly goes through four stages of metamorphosis. The first stage is the Egg. Here, the eggs are laid on plants by the adult female butterfly. These plants will then become the food for the hatching caterpillars. It is in this first stage that I discovered over thirteen years ago that I was HIV positive on top of having sickle cell anaemia.
The process of accepting that I had HIV took quite a long time. I could not understand why God would do this to me, like where was he in all this? Wasn’t one chronic disease enough? so why did there have to be more? I actually became very fearful that I would be a collection base for diseases. One time I felt a lump on my breast and yep, I thought this is cancer. Thankfully it wasn’t
If it cannot break its egg’s shell ,A chick will die without being bornWho are you by The Moth has eyes
Embracing Your Story: The Egg
When starting out, we usually have no idea how to take a step, which way to go and it is very ok. I am in a place where I am back at the egg. Haha! Not as previously coz obviously, I have grown but a new journey is commencing thus it’s a new beginning, a new start, a new egg.
And that’s the thing- embracing your story means embracing each and everything that happened to you in the past, right now in the present and in the future. It is a continuous thing. It will definitely not be easy but with intentionality, it can be done.
You are a baby just learning to toddle. Just take that step…one after the other and soon you’ll be walking. In the end, that’s the journey to embracing your story.